WOWZERS! An update!  Yeah so i been thinking about doing an update for a long time but i just havent gotten around to it. Its been forever since i last wrote and i swear i feel like anything that could have happened has. I have had some extremly happy moments, where i was so happy that i thought i might bust. And i've had some moments that i felt so down that i seriously think about giving up on everything. But through it all im still here, so i havent given up and things have gotten better.

I am officially 19 years old and im hoping for some good things to happen! 18 was a pretty good year, but i always hope for more from the next year. My birthday was nice. I wish i could have spent it with friends but mommy and jada were nice too! I got some awesome presents (cant wait to take my Coach wristlet out! thanks karissa!) Oh yeah! I'm gonna be Heidi's maid of honor in her wedding and i couldnt be more excited. This is what friendship is about, being there for your friend when the person takes their first steps into a new stage of life. Heidi, im so excited for u, so happy and honored you want me as ur maid of honor and im basically speechless im so happy!

For some comedy in my daily life: there are giant red spiders in my room and as some of u know my number 3 fear is spiders (followed by  #4 aliens). Im so afraid of spiders i can hardly kill them, i scream and start shaking its horrible. Im so paranoid of another one popping up that i keep looking around my room so i can run if i see one.  And then there is Resident Racoon. (thats what i call the racoon that lives around my apartment). I wake up last monday at 3:30am and it is screaming like someone is stabbing it. Then it goes back to making its racoon noise and then screaming again...right outside my bedroom window. Then there is a chipmunk that runs across my balcony 5 or so times a day. And the skunk that also lives near my window that decided to spray friday night so my room stunk! Yeah i feel like im getting in touch with nature!  I HATE NATURE!

Alright well im back so leave me some lovin!

Ni how ma? (That means how are u?) Hopefully you are all good! So lets talk life everyone.Yeah life. My favorite subject and yours! What we know so far is that it isn't fair. And its unfair for pretty much everyone. We also know that it often it sucks. My good friend Ashley likes to say "life sucks and then you die." Hmmm seems pretty true. So you're prolly wondering where im going with all this. I wish i knew. Maybe by just reading this, someone will think a little bit more, or try a little bit harder. And then again maybe not. I just got a lot on my mind right now. One thing plaguing me more than others. Some people know what, most dont though. But bascially i am reevaluating life. Im rethinking myself, others and how things work for me. Im trying to find something that is mine and mine alone. Call me selfish, but i'll tell you that you're wrong about this one. I almost feel like i have shared too much of me with other people. People who in retrospect, dont deserve to know all they do about me. Guess i'll just have to be more careful next time. Nothing i can do now. Maybe thats what the problem is. We spend too much time with the woulda, shoulda and couldas. But they dont matter. I say focus on now. Who cares about yesterday, and tomorrow isn't guarnteed. I think at this point i am just rambling but thats okay. What do u think xanga is for anyway. Hmmm i wrote all that and actually got something off my mind. Mind you it was small but its gone now.Well tomorrow ends my weekend away and then monday its back to the rat race. Week 7- here i come! If anyone reads this and you feel confused, join the club.  I love most of you!

Howdy yall! Look another new pic on the xanga! I like this one better cuz it has my real smile on it! Yay! Im kinda in a good mood but i dont know why considering that i am actually sick right now and think i have a slight fever!  But other than being sick life is going pretty good. Im sitting at Vincci's desk updating my xanga (cuz my computer is coming around but aint right yet) and i just ate all her red gummy bears!  Dont be angry there was only 3 left! Love u vincci chan! Even if she is mad, its payback cuz she got me sick! But im not mad. Anyways moving on...

The weekend was fun. On Friday Karissa came down to celebrate turning 18. We went to the step show. It was amazing. And at the end when the Kappas said they had something for the ladies and then they took their shirts off  oh yeah, it was all good!  Then we went to the after party to dance. Once we got dancing it was a lot of fun. Until this 400+ pound man started grinding on me!!!!  It was disturbing. I was like oh my gosh, swear my face looked just like this . LOL But after that i had a lot of fun. Oh yeah, that is until someone threw beer and it got on me. Just imagine tiff in her i'm not drinking until im 21 righteous stage, with beer on my arm and in my hair. I just stopped dancing and stood there shaking!  Gross! Oh yeah you guys should have seen my scandalous outfit!! Okay it wasnt that scandalous, but for me it was. You should have seen it!

Well this weekend is gonng be great too cuz my mommy and little sister (two people i love more than anyone else in the world) are coming down for mothers day and i couldnt be more happy. I cant wait till Friday!! Yay! Hey everyone if you're a praying person join me in praying for my best friend heidi and her fiance jimmy who is gonna be shipped off to Iraq in late june. Heidi knows i love her and would do anything to help her but this is all i can do.

Well i gotta go cuz now i've eaten all of vincci's yellow gummy bears and if i dont get up i will eat the orange ones too. HEHEHE love ya vincci! Peace out!

Hello Hello! Its been a week since i updated but that hasn't been my fault. My computer wont let me look at my own Xanga. It tells me i did something illegal. I did not!  Well anyway lets catch up shall we. Hmmm where to begin. Well lets not talk about last week lets just focus on happy stuff!

Yesterday was prolly the best day i have had all year since going to college. It started good and it ended that way. I woke up took my shower, curled my hair and was considering what to wear when i decided to weigh myself. Though i will not reveal what the numbers were  lets just say that since winter quarter they are down 11.5 pounds. And that made me extra happy so i ran over to my wardrobe took out my tight jeans and...they FIT! And perfectly, like a glove and in all the right places.  Then i was just really happy! I went to my first two classes and just stayed happy! Then after anatomy me and holly went over to the oval and chilled until time for our last class. Just as it was class time it got cold and the sun went in, but i was still happy cuz my last class got cancelled. Sweetness!!  Then we went to the Marketplace where i had some super delicious food! YAY!!! Then late that night I had to teach Vincci and Linda how to dance like ho's. We were poppin it and droppin it like it was hott! So much fun!! Let Monday April 26th 2004 go down in the record books as one of the best days of my life!  Yes my entire life!!!

So whats goin down now? Well today wasnt nearly as good but not too bad either. Karissa is coming down this weekend and i am gonna have so much fun. I wish my closest friends could be around me more often cuz i need them. But i should be studying so thats what im gonna do. If u deserve to be loved, then love to u!

Special shoutouts: Thanks for ur comments Kent they always make me smile (and my roommate spaz out when she read the TSexy part) hehehe~Vincci i'm using ur computer to update my page. hehehe Love ya!~Heidi-there's too much i could say to u. So just know i love u. Maybe more than everyone else!